SLEEPLESS NIGHTS and STIRRED UP THOUGHTS

"The still water borrowed thus,the sanity of the calm night.The rain fed the reflection of the moon.Gleamingly did it mirror the half curved beauty.The moon with its eye brow shade was seen naturally dispersed on an undisturbed stillness ,provided at a stretch by the slow running shame runner ~ sewage water..."

Synopsis: Sometimes bad reflects the good.

An eye beyond the visibility alone can facilitate such capability to see.After nearly three months,when I decided to update my blog I found myself pleased to have a lot in my vocabulary kit to sprinkle the colour of words on the plain page.But its not an easy task to transform your thoughts into words unless you have a question for which you are supposed to write an answer.So I was sitting still over the "no opinion" based questions.

The time was 2:35 a.m. Wee hours and it's almost impossible to find this calmness in the skirmishes of your daily routine city life.To be at par with the calmness you must first be aware that we are missing the best part of the living when not our times are spend on seeking solitude.So I was completely aware of my state and enjoyed writing this page in my life.Sometimes the sound of waves "over echoed" this emptiness but then my hands were busy writing.

Spot:Elliots beach..

Defeat and failure are two different impostors and are not to be treated the same.You may fail in an exam but you are not defeated in the process.Sometimes a sense of satisfaction still prevails behind the thick line of open failure.UPSC results which were published a week ago had a devastating effect upon me.I failed miserably for the first time despite working hard(not smart).But the factors that led to this failure were juxtaposed infront of me.Perhaps I picked the wrong yard stick for "success" and the result was the high octane pressure that boiled down as a hot pit over my closed ones.When realised later,this failure actually opened me up a new window of opportunity to see the life beyond career and to enjoy failure just to learn "not to" fail again.


Having written a part of the thought process ,I tried meditating, to converge these thoughts into a single line of action.

The sea's only gifts are its harsh blows and occasionally a chance to feel strong.It gives you the depth of yourself atleast once,to find yourself atleast once with the feel beyond the flesh,facing the blind,deaf stone alone ,with nothing to help but your mind and heart.But remember the two(mind and heart) are contradictory and you will see the result of this contradiction at the end of this article.

When thoughts beyond practice rises in your head,you no longer can be a stable system.The behaviour of a man is always equated to that of the pendulum.The "in and around" mood swings are a part of our daily life.But these swings happen without our conscious memory.The best way to get in feel with these mood swings is to stay out of the heart and mind and observe the beat of our action.Its a tough task and I did practice it only to regret later.

When I shared my thoughts of ambition in my life ,I was welcomed with a thumping applause.Beyond these "mood swinger" process I was steady in steering these ambitious thoughts into action.But the deeper you observe the "mind and heart" you will begin to realise that this very nature of the ambitious thought ,is an abstract material of uncertainty that one crosses through his/her phase of life.I know that the complete tone of this post is highly philosophical that most readers of the materialistic thought curse themselves for having opened this post.But still,the little rationality thought hidden deep within will dust up the true purpose of this article and it is to answer "Why I am in this world??".

Sometimes I extrapolate these thoughts to question the unanswered.Since we now are into an era of SETI( search for extra terrestrial intelligence),I wondered why our thoughts are still holding deep roots to mystic religious beliefs.Is it not possible that like we "humans",the aliens too can monitor us.Are we just the manipulations of some ordained parameters of experimentation like love,power,money,lust,greed etc.To put it in a crude way,"Is not the human being a chunk of chemicals which reacts differently when the earlier mentioned parameters are varied?"What if a parallel universe exist and why can't  I by all possible means write normal stuff like other bloggers.The questions continue and the answers are "SLEEPLESS NIGHTS"..

They say when you seek the answers from within you become a better man.Maybe, the popping up of these questions and the "bending not to "any belief attitude of mine makes me a person beyond convention.But then the price I pay is " SLEEPLESS NIGHT"

"I don't want to believe..I want to know.. I respect the values but then I demand behaviour..Be not at wars ,for the description of the  opinions are subjective..I don't believe in Gods and I am not an atheist"

~ A piece of non-degradable junk from a sleepless night of a "no-man" category.