"“The trouble is not that I am single and likely to stay single, but that I am lonely and likely to stay lonely"
Sometimes you need a way bound thinking to understand the concept of real expectation.The passage of life time as such gives you a chance by then and there to stop and listen to your original 'you'.So one such incident put in my own way .
...No matter how hard you try you'll be never able to fly high even though you're dropped from a flying copter.Yes.Same is the awkwardness of mine.I expected a change to leave back all worries at homeland.But,No...the seasons have come and gone but the weather of pain stays deep inside.Its been an year since I wrote stuff from my heart. And this is for my childhood redeem.
"Shri...cmon yaar", Matt's voice was loud.
My mind was far away mingling with the deepest buried good thoughts.Man's curious nature have created enough chaos to the nature.Sometimes,I give a second thought taking a step forward to fall in love,get married ,get a hike in pay,go to a pub on a weekend and die a day all of a sudden.My complex cerebro always have put me in an intuitive recreation process.There's nothing called impossible but only untried.No matter the places you go,you always find people only of two kind: One who dies and lives ,One who lives and dies.
If you've a keen look at the two extremely opposite pattern of human life,you perhaps then have to stay neutral.Neither of the pattern can be put on a comparative mode.Deep and beyond practical thinking justifies the first pattern of living,whereas the common thought of a "A Happy day to Die" justifies the latter.The point I'm trying to make here is not about defining the pattern of life but about the purpose. A life of purpose is the purpose of life itself.If this is realized,peace then may prevail on earth.
"So..Shri..your mind thoughts are over??"
"Matt...how is that you become a genius whenever it comes to the process of advising me??!!"
"C'mon psycho boy...so,how are you now?? You seem to have become an extrovert these days!!'
"Ya..'The Wedding' changed me.I wasn't serious about marriage then .But later I realized that for humans who follow the "live and die" pattern,the event is marked as the most significant one.Say ,one for a life time"
"Oh..There's the sober behind that smile.Brief me dearie..How all of a sudden your opinion changed??"
"Aren't you supposed to be asleep now?Its 10 past 12."
"No,my atta boy..I've got all the time in the world.Oblige me."
"Okay..There you go..A little flash back.You remember Rathika,my childhood friend.?!"
"You have told about her.19 years of friendship right?"
"Yes.But now I am feeling a bit or rather a lot uncomfortable to talk with my sis"
"Why..because she got married??"
"C'mon Matt..we aren't those friends who come and go for time pass.we are good and we have the underlying concept of 'Say no word but understand' ".
"But then what??"
"But then this.I've hurt her.I later realized that certain philosophical ideas of mine tend to hurt people unseemingly in a tender way.You know very well that I don't like birthday parties and more often a casual spent on a hotel.My idea is seemingly different.You very well know that.But then at the same point,in all unique ways it hurts the people around me.So in a dilemma,I believe that the happiness of surrounding people makes you happy and henceforth I go with them"
"But does that make you really happy??"
"In a way or so, 'NO',I go against my nature"
"Say about Rathika now"
"Right.I was on a vacation ,a vacation particularly took for the purpose of attending her wedding.I arrived a
day before her marriage. As you're aware Nagercoil is not a merry making town for me.I have my cave hidden there and it better remain hidden.I haven't got any idea about the marriage ceremony,You know my childhood Matt.Pretty hard days.My best friends are " me,me and myself".So not attending her reception was not considered by me as a serious ill.But then the morning text from her made me realize that I had hurt her.She was expecting my presence"
"Yes.Dumbo..You deserve a serious punishment"
"I agree.But c'mon Matt..All in my life I've considered myself to be the lone walk guy.Even in my working places,friends, I believe, do not consider me serious.I have even hear some say that "Whatever you do,you're not gonna be considered serious".My home buddy Ram says the same.So I wasn't expeccting myself to be the expected guest at her wedding.Well I can't say that for an excuse either.Marriage in my consideration is(was) generally an outliving showoff to carry on a relationship for the passage of the God's messengers(kids)"
"Ah..!!The philosophy again.Not today Mr.Paranoia..Better check Menon for an appointment.And wake up now..Its 5'o clock..Your suprabatham is ringing loud"
Dream over...
